Feeling disheartened...

The last two days have been tough. Yesterday I was feeling annoyed at only having lost 2lb, despite genuinely trying hard and avoiding "bad" food, and I was also hormonal which wasn't a great combination. I managed to resist having a pig-out, which is what I really wanted to do, and instead decided I would have a slightly nicer tea. Fresh mozzarella and tomato pasta with roasted veg sauce and Tesco Finest onion bread on the side. Yum! Really made me feel better because it was a bit "naughtier" than I would usually have, but not so bad that it would blow the diet completely.

I really feel I'm my own worst enemy sometimes. I get the devil in me encouraging me to eat chocolate and sweets by telling me that I've only lost 2lb for all that effort and it's really not worth it. I know that if I do give in the only person I'll be hurting is myself. And, I must keep reminding myself, 1lb per week weight loss is almost 4 stone in a year...and that is nearly my target!

So, onwards I plod on my very long journey to weight loss. A nice 3lb or so in the next week would really help to lift my spirits but I'm guessing that's not going to happen. Not like those buggers on The Biggest Loser who lose a stone a week (but then, they are eating nothing but salad and exercising for 6 hours a day so of course they'll lose more!).

Tomorrow I'm going easy on myself. We're having a breakfast meeting at work with croissants so I will have a lighter breakfast. We're then going out for drinks and food after work so that'll up the calorie intake quite significantly but hey, this is the rest of my life we're talking about and I can't be saintly every day. I know that the most important thing is to treat each day like the first, and if I do have any blips then I can just start again the next day.

Now I feel better :0)

One week done

So, the first full week is over and I have surprised myself by not giving in to temptation (apart from that one bag of Caramel Nibbles, but then I am only human) or actually not being that tempted in the first place. I thought that I would have lost at least 3lb this week.

Fast forward to Saturday morning when I stood on the scales (before breakfast of course) and had put on one pound. Unbelieveable. But then, I had also welcomed Auntie Ruby to stay that morning so I guess it's not all that surprising. I was mightily pee'd off but decided I wouldn't let one little setback put me off and continued to stick to my diet all weekend.

Today I weighed myself and am now 2lb lighter than I was on Saturday. This pleases me and has spurred me on again. Today I have been saintly and feel good for it, even though I saw a man eat a chocolate bar on the train and wanted to wrestle him for it. As daft as it sounds, I am quite enjoying this! I have a little "reward chart" I have made with my 70lb that I want to lose in individual boxes, and for every pound I lose I cover that number with a sticker. I know it's lame and I'm not 4 years old but in a silly way it keeps me on track. After all, who doesn't like rewards?

It's started...

So, here we are, a new year and a new start. Yesterday the "diet" began in earnest. Two days in and I am already starving.

There's something about being on a diet that makes my awkward brain feel really hungry all the time. It's silly really, because even after I've eaten I still feel hungry even though I can't possibly be. I guess it's that feeling of depriving myself even though I ate enough crap over Christmas that I can't possibly have any more need for chocolate.

My biggest problem is the evenings when me and Mr M sit in front of the telly and scoff chocolate. Last night I decided to have a low fat hot chocolate instead...only to find they were months out of date. Rubbish. So tonight, I've been to Tesco and bought some more. Hopefully they will keep me on the right path when the evening choc cravings start.

First weigh in will be next Monday and I am excited about it. A good weight loss in the first week will really spur me on so here's hoping (although luck really has nothing to do with it).

The last two days I have been really disciplined. I'm pleased about this and have a good, positive feeling about things. Let's hope this positivity continues! I want at least 7lb gone by the time I go on holiday in just over 3 weeks...